I though my decision was right...i though i wasn't picky...i though my future plan was correct...and so i though...but i'm totally wrong about everything...i though too far out till i forgotten about the very basic and simple things...
Family asked how was my future planing coming...i told them for further study will have to wait till the confirmation from brother's friend, cause degree required more stuffs to be done than i expected...but i was hoping to work more than furthering my study...and so brother asked have i found any company i wanted to apply...the "mr. though he was right" me told him, said that already did research about the companies i wanted to try applying...but the location for most of was too far away...and i doesn't suit their requirement...
Dad and brother started to lecture me soon after that, though was just their another unrelated topic of lecturing...but as they continue and i sat there silent listening to 'em both...slowly i realized i was too foolish to denied than i'm nothing but a scary cat who doesn't dare to try and face failure...brother told me that is okay to apply those job even i don't reach their requirement...cause i'll never know that i might be able to get it if i didn't give a try...even if i failed on the interview...at least i gain something from that failure...that moment i heard those words...i was really unhappy, unhappy that why i have forgotten to think about the bright side of things, forgotten to remember...dad said those so called required "software" was just a another daily tool...a tool that i can learn within a short time as long as i willing to...again i will never know whether those companies will accept what i already had or not, if i don't give it a try...who knows...maybe those so called "requirement" they post was just a word and nothing more...they may even give out training to boost on those requirement...if they really needed the man power and i willing to learn...
As for traveling, this is just another simple matter...is cause i didn't share my though with 'em and make things harder for myself...they willing to support me in this, just need to think and find solution together...3 mind is always better than 1...
My result doesn't mean anything as well...a 4.00 flat GPA was just a gateway ticket...nothing more...this i already knew while i was in high school...thatz i why doesn't care much about those meaningless mark and points...as long as i get an average for the gateway ticket...
For now...i'll go all out to the interviews...bad or worse...they both expected i'll failed 1 to 3 times or even more...but...fear not for failure, fear for not trying...tears in my heart...
Family asked how was my future planing coming...i told them for further study will have to wait till the confirmation from brother's friend, cause degree required more stuffs to be done than i expected...but i was hoping to work more than furthering my study...and so brother asked have i found any company i wanted to apply...the "mr. though he was right" me told him, said that already did research about the companies i wanted to try applying...but the location for most of was too far away...and i doesn't suit their requirement...
Dad and brother started to lecture me soon after that, though was just their another unrelated topic of lecturing...but as they continue and i sat there silent listening to 'em both...slowly i realized i was too foolish to denied than i'm nothing but a scary cat who doesn't dare to try and face failure...brother told me that is okay to apply those job even i don't reach their requirement...cause i'll never know that i might be able to get it if i didn't give a try...even if i failed on the interview...at least i gain something from that failure...that moment i heard those words...i was really unhappy, unhappy that why i have forgotten to think about the bright side of things, forgotten to remember...dad said those so called required "software" was just a another daily tool...a tool that i can learn within a short time as long as i willing to...again i will never know whether those companies will accept what i already had or not, if i don't give it a try...who knows...maybe those so called "requirement" they post was just a word and nothing more...they may even give out training to boost on those requirement...if they really needed the man power and i willing to learn...
As for traveling, this is just another simple matter...is cause i didn't share my though with 'em and make things harder for myself...they willing to support me in this, just need to think and find solution together...3 mind is always better than 1...
My result doesn't mean anything as well...a 4.00 flat GPA was just a gateway ticket...nothing more...this i already knew while i was in high school...thatz i why doesn't care much about those meaningless mark and points...as long as i get an average for the gateway ticket...
For now...i'll go all out to the interviews...bad or worse...they both expected i'll failed 1 to 3 times or even more...but...fear not for failure, fear for not trying...tears in my heart...
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